Hey guys, it's been a while since I posted on this blog. These last few months have been some of the most trying, as well as the most educational months of my life. I learned so much from the trials I faced and so I'd like to share with you some words of wisdom.
You are the master of your own life. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
As you can tell from my last post ("Broken"), life hit me pretty hard. When people ask me what I've been doing lately, I tell them I've been hibernating, because truthfully, that's the best description I can think of. Most of my recent trials have involved relationships with people. I've was betrayed by family members, cheated by friends, and at times I've even felt abandoned by God.
When I was younger, I discovered that when a room or a drawer or a backpack is so messy that it becomes unmanageable, it's often easier to just remove everything and only put back what's important rather than trying to sort through the mess. So that's what I did with my life.
The time I spent alone with basically no responsibilities, deadlines, or expectations was immensely satisfying. It gave me time to focus on myself. With no pressure to worry about other people's lives, I was able to turn inward and focus all my energy my own. I was able to seriously contemplate who I was, who I wanted to become, and what I needed to do to get there.
Four months later I'm finally back on my feet. I know who I am and I'm okay with it. I know who I want to be and I'm excited for the journey that will take me there. I'm finally starting to put things back together the way I feel like they're supposed to be, but rest assured, I'm only putting back what's important.
So my advice to you is this: don't let the distractions of the world stop you from becoming your very best self. As important as serving and helping other people is, you can't spread yourself out too thin. Take time to focus on who you are. Do things that you enjoy. Don't be afraid to make yourself happy. You are the master of your own life; don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
If I'm not too tired after work, I often take a stroll around Temple Square. As I do, I can't help but think about how blessed I am to be a member of this church. My wanderings usually lead me to a bench in the southwest corner, from which I have a view of the Assembly Hall, Tabernacle, Conference Center, Salt Lake Temple, Joseph Smith Memorial Building, and several statues of pioneers. As I sit, I think about my purpose in life and what I can do to be a better disciple of Christ. When my ponderings are done, I take a picture, say a prayer, and resolve once again to do all I can to build the Kingdom of God. These are sacred moments, for in them I am given a witness that I truly am a child of God.
My name is Jordan Michael Anderson. My life's mission is to do as much good as possible.